the melancholy of ogawa miharu

yeah... melancholy for so long... i felt the sudden urge to give up... not on somebody... not my NSET career... damn right... I just realized that if I continued... it would slowly disintegrate, the feelings and the like would end as if nothing happened... pointless pointless... that is how I feel but due to the fact that the person is still there provides a tiny string o hope to it.. come what may... geez... O_o I am so unsure... damn it.